This year has been quite the ride, a few swerves, but mostly smooth.
I stayed at home with my daughter more. I cherished my days with her more. I was able to be a more present mom. I got a great job working for a great company. It was a job I deserved after having a shitty one I didn't.
I hustled my little heart away through blogging and made an income from it. I was now doing things I truly loved and getting compensated for it.
I felt courageous, I felt weak. I felt ugly, I felt pretty. I struggled with my greatest fear of aging, I perservered at facing my fears of public speaking. I grew in different ways. I became more accepting, a better listener, and more empathetic. I let the little things slide, and focused on the big things. I'm working toward purpose, though I'm not there yet.
I thought about my dreams, I pondered what dreams passed me by. I made promises to myself, I made promises to my daughter. I broke promises to others. I failed people, I surprised people. I focused on being a good mom, I sometimes failed at being a good mom.
One thing is for certain; I am thankful every single day for where I am. I'm thankful for my health, my happiness, my safety, my freedom, and my abundance of love - both given and received. I sometimes whisper thank-yous into the universe. We made it another year, we made it out alive; not everyone gets so lucky.
2015 was good to me. It was another nicely paved road I got to ride on that will bring me closer to another road I get to ride next year. The roads aren't always paved well, and I don't always get to pave them myself, but I learn how to ride them regardless.
My main is to keep my mind on the big tasks. To not get caught up in things that don't matter. What matters? Love, health, and happiness. If it's not bringing me closer to those things, then I'll step away.
I stayed at home with my daughter more. I cherished my days with her more. I was able to be a more present mom. I got a great job working for a great company. It was a job I deserved after having a shitty one I didn't.
I hustled my little heart away through blogging and made an income from it. I was now doing things I truly loved and getting compensated for it.
I felt courageous, I felt weak. I felt ugly, I felt pretty. I struggled with my greatest fear of aging, I perservered at facing my fears of public speaking. I grew in different ways. I became more accepting, a better listener, and more empathetic. I let the little things slide, and focused on the big things. I'm working toward purpose, though I'm not there yet.
I thought about my dreams, I pondered what dreams passed me by. I made promises to myself, I made promises to my daughter. I broke promises to others. I failed people, I surprised people. I focused on being a good mom, I sometimes failed at being a good mom.
One thing is for certain; I am thankful every single day for where I am. I'm thankful for my health, my happiness, my safety, my freedom, and my abundance of love - both given and received. I sometimes whisper thank-yous into the universe. We made it another year, we made it out alive; not everyone gets so lucky.
2015 was good to me. It was another nicely paved road I got to ride on that will bring me closer to another road I get to ride next year. The roads aren't always paved well, and I don't always get to pave them myself, but I learn how to ride them regardless.
My main is to keep my mind on the big tasks. To not get caught up in things that don't matter. What matters? Love, health, and happiness. If it's not bringing me closer to those things, then I'll step away.
What kinds of goals does everyone want to manifest in the new year?
2015 was quite an up and down year for me as well. One step forward and one step back it seemed but at least made it through-and not all of my friends were so lucky. Looking forward to an amazing 2016. Congratulations on your new job and making an income from blogging!
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